Welcome to my Stains from another Life.

These are ALL MY memories. Most of them seem so long ago and feel like another lifetime or like they happened to another person.

In my 20 years of conventional therapy, 10 years of it being cognitive behavioral therapy, I have some significant insight into my warped, overly analytical, critical, hyperactive brain that just can’t relax! So, I am taking a shot at these writing remedies in hopes to heal and realize a mental calm.


The posts SHOULD be read in chronological order, The first post will be the "first chapter" and the most recent post will be the "lastest chapter" and so on. So, for those of you new to my blog, start at Scar #1. This is important to follow my life events in order to be able to understand and follow.

Anyway~ I hope you enjoy! And I don't want, need or expect ANY sympothy...this is just the way my life has been...it is what it is. I wouldn't be me without this history and right now I don't think I'm that bad. Key words; RIGHT NOW!

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Thursday, July 26, 2012

Scar # 5 The Daddy Detective


The Daddy Detective ~  

September 1989…I was 16 years old… most people believed I was 17, 18 years old.  Esquire and I were doing pretty well. I was busy working in Alexandria and he worked late nights at the liquor store until closing 12-1 a.m. I was also helping my mom out with baby girl, only because I missed baby girl so much, so I went and watched her when mom had to work on the weekends or late at night. I loved that baby girl so very much.

While I was at my mom’s apartment watching baby girl, I was reviewing the paperwork I had collected, trying to make since out of it all. My birth certificate; there was a different last name than my current one. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON? This is getting more and more bizarre.

There were three marriage certificates; two with my mom’s name and one which appeared to be the name of my father just a few tweaks of the name; you know… variations of a name; Ben, Benjamin, Benny. What is all of this? So, I put the marriage certificated in order by date. My mom married a man different than my father September 1969. She also married my father (??) February 1972. This was very peculiar. The last one was one with the variation of my dad to another woman; a woman with a very prestigious sounding name, dated July 1974. What is going on, I thought. I dug through her files some more and came across some more interesting paperwork which I also put in chronological order by date.





1.       September 1972;  the marriage certificate with mom’s name to a man with a strapping name; we’ll call him “Strapper” 

    OK, Who is Strapper? Where did he come from?

2.       February 1972; a marriage certificate with my mom’s name and the name of my father on my birth certificate.

3.       April 1972; A letter from the State of Maryland Board of Parole; addressed to my father, for now his formal name will be “Mr. X”.

Addressed to; Mr. X

Maryland Penitentiary

Dear Mr. X, you appeared before the Board of Parole in February 1972, and your case was held pending receipt of your psychological and psychiatric evaluations. Upon receipt of this additional information, your entire file was carefully and thoroughly reviewed by the Panel that conducted your hearing.

It was the decision of the Panel to rehear your case in April 1973. In reaching this decision the Board considered your extensive prior record, your escape from the institution on two occasions, and the fact that during your recent convalescence at University hospital, you persuaded a guard to take you home, which was against rules.

In addition, the Board wants to re-evaluate your medical condition after you have reached maximum recovery, so that they can more readily judge your ability to function in the community. During the interim, if your physical condition permits, it is suggested that you seek a transfer to the Camp system and/or the Work Release Program.

                                                                                                                Very truly yours,

                                                                                                                Ass Wipe

                                                                                                                Chairman

  

4.       June 1972; A letter written by mom to the Governor of the State of Maryland in reference to Mr. X.

Honorable Sir:

I am appealing to you, as Governor, to intercede on behalf of my husband Mr. X #12016, MD. Penitentiary and myself. Blah, blah, blah… to have my husband released.

Please let him out of prison, blah, blah, blah. We have our love; he has helped in a narcotic investigation with in the penitentiary. Numerous persons within the prison’s narcotic squad have ensured us that he will be released.

When he (Mr. X) suffered a stroke while in “protective custody”. He was taken to University Hospital and admitted there. While there we repeatedly spoke with the narcotic squad and were again ensured he would be released from hospital to home.

At Mr. X’s parole hearing in April 1972, he was denied.

Blah, blah, blah, FUCKING blah…. X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X   X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X (for another page)

At this time Mr. X is locked in a room on the fourth floor of the penitentiary hospital, twenty-four hours a day.  As a result of his assistance in the narcotic sting, he is not able to transfer to Hagerstown or Jessup, for fear of retaliation. Blah, Blah, Blah!

He is unable to participate in any programs because of his “protective custody” status. I know Mr. X has an extensive past record, but that is just what it is, “a PAST record”. If he were the same man as he was when he made that record, he would have walked out of University Hospital LONG ago. He certainly had enough opportunities!

Governor, we are asking for a chance… blah, blah, FUCKING blah.



                                                                                                Sincerely,

                                                                                                The Devoted Wife

Side note:  Notice she NEVER mentioned the fact that he persuaded a guard to take him home from University Hospital.



5.   August 1972; A letter to the State Senator of Prince George’s County, MD from The Board of Parole.

Dear Senator,

I have discussed this case with my associate whom is familiar with this case. Both of us, at this time, feel that the decision of the Board is reasonable due to Mr. X’s extensive criminal record dating from June, 1956. I am sure that you are aware that he was originally serving a 30 year sentence which was commuted by the Governor to 20 years.

Mr. X has also escaped on two occasions and has unfavorable reports from the psychologists and psychiatrists; stating he is manipulative and convincing with noteworthy grandeur.  I am also sure you are aware that on his last escape, he married his third wife. It is very unfortunate that she has been ill with major surgery.

It is my belief that the subject exert all efforts to get into a minimum security situation and preferably into the Camp system on work release by the time of his next hearing in April 1972.
 

WOW! WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON? I was Blown away! Clearly he was or is in prison. I had even more documents to read... 

  6.       July 1974; The State of Maryland,     Baltimore County, sct. An application and certificate of marriage to a variation of Mr. X’s name and that snooty sounding woman, we’ll call her “Snoot”.
    7.       June 1977;
The Circuit Court of Baltimore County, MD.

“Devoted Wife” is hereby granted a divorce “A Vinculo Matrimonii” from defendant, the said Mr. X.



WAIT THE FUCK A MINUTE!

Devoted Wife and Mr. X were married in 1972, I was born in 1973, he married Snoot in 1974 and Devoted Wife and Mr. X weren’t divorced until 1977. WHAT IS GOING ON???????????

So, he married Snoot while married to my Mom a year after I was born??? Huh? I’m so confused!


8.    August 1978; In the Circuit Court for Prince George’s County, Maryland.

The petition for name change of Ex-Devoted Wife  and minor child (me) has been granted made in accordance with the Maryland rules and no affidavit filed in opposition thereto it is by the Circuit Court.

Ordered; NEW NAMES!

Ahhhhh Buh-bye Mr. X

5 comments:

If I told you that I'd have to Kill you said...

I'm impressed with what you had to work with and what you've since found. I also think the way you've set up your page is just beautiful!

(how did you get yours to say "email follow-up comments??)

Me said...

Where do you see that it says email follow-up comments?


Oh I see, at the bottom here... I have no idea! I know when you are in the posts you can go to the right side and change the way things post. Maybe in the "lay Out" part when you click on edit in the particular section of the layout there may be something there...I'll check!

Me said...

I have NO FUCKING idea where that came from...I just looked everywhere and didn't see it. What does it do, do you know?

If I told you that I'd have to Kill you said...

Sends email to update comment strings

Me said...

I have NO IDEA! :p